Stalled

Oh dear. When I started this blog a few months back I had intentions of doing interviews, video how-tos, tips and tricks and a whole bunch of stuff.  That kinda hasn’t happened  unfortunately. The Burlesque Noir video is half way edited and was supposed to be done in May before the Greatest Tits show. But well, Paul ( who is a fantastic editor) got really busy. I suck at editing. So, it sits unfinished. I hope it gets finished.

I had LOTS of ideas in April. Right before I quit I knew the direction I wanted to go in. Now that direction has gone somewhere and I have no clue where it’s going. It’s organic. I’m gonna let it evolve to where it needs and wants to go.

Other things have gotten in the way.  I know I’m not alone when you decide to move it pretty much consumes a lot of your time and energy. After this month is over I hope to get back to creation and getting off of my ass and lining up some performances.

I really want and need to perform. I really need to get to work on that. I’m so much better at performing than I am at working.

I feel like Starbuck. I’m only good at one thing. Other things I frak up. 

But, we are both badass.

So, never fear. I will get this more off the ground so next, I will never work for anybody else but myself. Working for someone else is for suckers.

Hey Sarebear!

 

Whatcha been up to?

• Packing! I’m moving out of my apartment and becoming a gypsy. I really hate sorting through all the little stuff and trying to decide if I want to keep it or not. I’m really trying to stick with the “ get rid of 80 to 90% of my belongings” thing. I’m sure I will. Yard sale Saturday the 25th! Bring cash and buy my stuff.
• Hooping. Now that I’m out of work and not in Roswell, I can go to Bataan park on Sundays and hoop my ass off. I can also hoop my ass off in Paul’s room. I can also hoop in other parks. I am DETERMINED to get chest/shoulder hooping down pat. None of this wonky business. I want to be a hooping master by the end of the year.
• I’m irritable. Like WhOA! Since I got laid off, I didn’t have enough money for my auto-ship of Xocai chocolate and rent, so the chocolate had to go (thanks to all the people who didn’t sign up, much love). That was the beginning of the month and I am feeling the effects. I’ve got some fantastically huge zits on my face and bloat like dead animal in the desert. Ugh. And being frustrated with hooping and poi tricks isn’t helping. 
• Job hunting. Ugh. Don’t want to but I need to eat and I would like a pair of Melodia’s. Anybody know of any work I could do for about 2 months?
• I’ve been spending a lot of my time naked. It’s just too dang hot to put on clothes.

What’s up with you?

 

This shit is whack, yo!

Banks. Credit cards. Late fees. Monthly maintenance fees. All of it. 100% whack!  I totally could have done without them. 

I’m on the hunt for a new bank. I am no longer getting direct deposit so Bank of America is debiting my checking account $8.95. RUDE.  To a new bank I go. It’s either Wells Fargo or Compass. Both offer checking accounts with no monthly fees and customizable check cards. But Wells Fargo is a national bank while Compass is not. What to do? What to do?

I still have yet to get back into that highly motivated state of mind. I feel like loafing around when I get off of work. Eight hours on your feet suck! I can’t wait for this job to be over. Bah!

I got a lot of thinking and planning to do in the coming months. A huge yard sale is in order. I’m getting rid of everything except some clothing, makeup, some books and jewelry. Everything else must go. Stay tuned for the yard sale date.

I need to work on new routines. I want to get a veil poi or voi routine in the works. I also need to work on a bellydance piece. I also need to work on a bellydance piece for a show on the 27th of this month. Fun fun fun!

Enough bitching.

Have some cute.